I've just been thinking about Spike's departure post then realised, maybe I have outgrown here too.

Been here for what.. 2~3 years now (can't even remember, heh), but then I was never really in the group was I.. Just ranted on about random stuff, half the time getting about as much attention as a trash bin at a zoo somewhere, eventually seeing all my peers depart and the forums fill up with a new generation.

And yeah.. I'm friggin' 20 now, the big two-zero. A couple of my friends even got married, becoming "responsible adults". I know Edwin's gonna give me crap for saying this, but maybe I'm a little too old to sit around and chat with guys 5~6 years younger than me, hm?

Actually, when I disappeared off pretty much without a notice (and nobody asked where I was in the vanished people thread, I've been gone for a good 5 months!! :cry: ) I did it cause I was trying to cut my links with this place. I got too old, too boring and I was freed from the chain dragging me down to this place known as RP moderator.

Then I realised.. hey, screw all that, this place is the only place where I still get to be seventeen and not be rejected as an immature bastard.
Besides, uni didn't turn up to be what it looked to be, and soon enough I was back here.


What the hell, I'm kinda messed up, slightly emotional from a few cans of drink at 3am in the morning, just ranting on as usual about random stuff in my mind maybe trying to get more attention.


So I'm trying to decide.. This place is sorta like the place where I've stored my immature personality into. If I leave here, well, you know.. I'll have to face the real life challenges. More than half of my "Uni" section of life's over, I'll soon be looking at finding a job, maybe even having a family not a few years down the road.

But really.. I don't want that, maybe its just selfish of me not wanting to grow up? Looking for a "Neverland" where you won't have to worry about all that crap? Always thought the best thing about anime/novel/fantasywhatever was that you never had to worry about the things of life.

Eventually though, I will have to face the realities of my life. Falling grades, lack of interest in tertiary education, employment, I've got at most 2 years maybe that I can waste until time's up.

So what should I do? Continue to take the "go with the flow" approach and see what I end up with? or get myself together and work to be a social success? (but a total personal failure)



After all these thoughts pass my head, (I'm actually thinking as I write this)
Ahh what the hell. The whole point of places like this is so that you could maybe forget about those annoyances of life. I'll be here till the day Ichigos ends.



I'm Kou. Age 20 and counting, Mental age frozen at 17 for an indefinite amount of time. Nice to meet you all again.

And here I thought this thread would have a purpose...you resolved that quickly, didn't you?

It does, I just wanted people to know.

I'm not going to let all the old members leave like that. Its just too sad. Please stay.

Well....glad you're still here. :P

I'll be here till the day Ichigos ends.

:punk:

Keep on keepin on, Kou. You'll do just fine.

:punk:

Keep on keepin on, Kou. You'll do just fine.

*plants bomb*

:torch:

Hehe, nice to see you've made up your mind. No point in creating another topic, but...I'll probaly be leaving this forum soon. It's seems its either RPGing, or pointless spam topics. Not only that, but it seems that I have managed to get on just about everyone's nerves. Angelic, Gand, Sarah, even Zero I'm sure. Then there is madmanz, as well as Alex. Kou even seemed to show some slight annoyance towards me.

I was talking to Alphonse about this just yesterday. Barely anyone here knows me, let alone cares. My posts mean absolutely nothing, hardly contribute to anything, and..well...generally, no one cares whether or not I am here. And why should they? What good have I done for ichigos? I have to post in fear that I will annoy someone, piss of an administrator (no, not just angelic), or get lectured for how stupid I am. I am also a very arguementative person. If I think differently about something, I like to argue my point, until the other person has nothing to say about it. People think I am trying to pull some act, hogging a stage to myself, but in all honestly, it's just who I am. Someone disagress with me, or has a different opinion, I like to debate over their logic, until they can either adapt to my logic, or I to theirs. I'm not trying to hurt feelings and break hearts, it's just...me tyring to convince or be convinced.

Because of this, it has cost me a lot, and is why so many people dislike me here. There are other forums out there, though, that openly accept people like me. Who encourage debate. Like the Sacrifice forum I go to, who encourage RTS discussion and debate. Or the evilbible forums that are soley for religions discussion. There are plenty of forums out there, that have no problem with different views on suicide, depression, and other topics like that-I can say what I truly feel. But here, I don't think I am welcome anymore. More rather, I feel I am unwanted. This forum seems more directed at pointless topics soley to gather bits and peicies of information about people, like "your favorite food" or "say something nice about the person above you." There are a few topics, yes, meant for serious discussion, but those are vaslty outnumbered.

Having said that, I'll probaly be leaving soon. Not sure when, but probaly this week or tommorow, depending upon how quickly I lose my interest in this forum. I'm sure not too many people really do care, but I post this post merely to inform, as it is convenient timing. I didn't really feel like making a whole entire thread for myself, as...well...I'm not really worth it. Call this post what you want. Call it me being an attention whore, call it me seeking pity, I no longer care. I'm leaving soon, and probaly won't come back, so you guys won't have to worry about it either.

Sorry, Kou, to use your topic and change it around, a bit, for my own use. Though this is likely to be the last time it happens, at least by me, so...let's not make a huge fuss :)

Geez, what's with everyone leaving all the sudden? This seems to have become a trend.

See? That is exactly why I try to make a stand against all those stupid OMG UR KAWAII Japanese speaking brats, they chase away the members who try to contribute in a more serious manner.

Nightmare, we never got along very well it seems, but you did your best to fit in and you did your best to help make ichigos a good place, and even though we often didn't agree on things, I thank you for all your contributions to this site and forum. I honestly think it's a shame to see you leave, partly because you're a good person despite our differences and partly because after Roy it means another serious member leaving the forums giving the kiddies more space to kick it to damnation even further.

:\ Well that's quite a negative way to look at things...

:cry: I don't want to see Ichigos die....


That is exactly why I try to make a stand against all those stupid OMG UR KAWAII Japanese speaking brats

I hope that's not the only reason people are leaving.

I'll be here till the day Ichigos ends.
Though that's happened several times already ;)

Nightmare, few members actually contribute something to a topic when they post, mostly its "me 2" crap and "OMG thats so true". You're one of those few, in case you didn't know. Hell, it doesn't matter if you don't get along perfectly with all of the members - as long as you have something to contribute and your disagreements dont become flame wars i think a person should be welcome here (but thats me - a nobody)

Kou - glad to hear that!!! Thats the spirit - not like Spike, running away ^_^ jk jk

@nightmare - I remember you because we took up 3 pages or more of arguing against each other. XD I thought you were one of the more intelligent people here but don't rely on philosophy too much. =P

Okay. Now I'm starting to get pissed off at people who say things like this.


Atleast your asking us if you should leave, unlike (name) who ran away HAHAHAHA JKJKJKJK.

People leaving is no damn joke. Dont make one from it either. It does not relieve any tension IMO, and ends up making people even more pissed. So I am asking, PLEASE do not make any jokes about serious situations.

See? That is exactly why I try to make a stand against all those stupid OMG UR KAWAII Japanese speaking brats, they chase away the members who try to contribute in a more serious manner.

Nightmare, we never got along very well it seems, but you did your best to fit in and you did your best to help make ichigos a good place, and even though we often didn't agree on things, I thank you for all your contributions to this site and forum. I honestly think it's a shame to see you leave, partly because you're a good person despite our differences and partly because after Roy it means another serious member leaving the forums giving the kiddies more space to kick it to damnation even further.

Oh come on! If you bothered to read what people wrote or ask the people who left instead of acting all hot-headed, you might know the real reason some people are leaving :P

Oh come on! If you bothered to read what people wrote or ask the people who left instead of acting all hot-headed, you might know the real reason some people are leaving :P

I'm sorry, but that is just plain rude. And how do you know what the "real" reason some people are leaving is?

Nobody does know except for the person that is leaving.

Herm...Your right XD Sorry....I got worked up once agian...

Im actualy going to leave soon, for about 10 months :P Details in a thread I will start the day I leave.

Agh! Not another one! Why is everyone picking today to announce their departures?!

lol, who knows.

i myself am getting old and yes i do not have as much time to come around on the forum as you have probably noticed but i apear now and then when i get time in between work uni and training,

but its always nice to come back on and have a look see how everyone is getting on.

Actually I am planning to leave as well. However I am not sure if I will leave this month or next month. It all depends on the rate of activity in the forum, and how others interact.

Ho, ho. Someone else is planning to leave. Big surprise. At this rate, I'll be all alone! :cry:

* We'll * be all alone. I'm not planning on going anyhwere. Can't abandon Ichigos now. *dramatic sappy music plays*

But seriously: Everyone who's leaving is leaving for their own reasons. Gotta respect that and just hope for the best for them.

i couldn't say it better :heh:

Ah i'll just use this thread to say something too

New Generations will overrun the old. That's nature. I think i'll be leaving once University starts. I love this place for the people and the music topics, but school just take away all the fun and enjoyment in life. I don't know about how stress Uni will be, but i know i will have even less time interacting with people on internet, than the last year of high school.

Oh well I'm glad Kou resolved his conflicts and decided to stay. I might pop in and out during school day if possible. (like any of you care anyways lol)

Ichigo will not die as long as there are new people joining, and it seems that there are many new people joining everyday. Good luck to Ichigo, and thank you for everything!

Ho, ho. Someone else is planning to leave. Big surprise. At this rate, I'll be all alone!

* We'll * be all alone.

Mountains may perish,
members may fall,
but whatever happens:
I will remain alone...

(and not you. As in me being Alone, ok? it even say so in the left hand corner...)

Maybe its time people stopped using this thread and create their own if they have something to say, not use Kou's <_<

This is starting to feel alot like living in a neighborhood and all of a sudden all your friends in the neighorhood tell you that they're all of a sudden moving and it breaks your heart to see them pack up and move away. *sigh*

Well, my friends fought damned hard for me to get back on here, so I'll be damned if I'm going anywhere anytime soon! Hopefully some of you will stick around with me, eh?

i'll probably be around for a while....

unless i find some other forum like this. then, ill quit one cuz i dont like juggling things around.

Um no offence but this thread is making people depressed and confused. the mood in the forum isn't very good at the moment and this thread seems to reinforce the idea that everything is solemn and saddening. spiky was a moderator so it was a special thing i guess. We're making it sound like it's the end of the world when it's not.

Let's just cheer up and get back to making ichigos what it was, cos face it, it's the members that make up ichigos, not just a few people. Every member is like a brick in a wall. Without one brick the wall is weaker. Without more bricks, that wall will collapse. Each brick is as important as any other brick in order to keep that wall standing. That wall is ichigos. Corny speech but someone's got to kick everyone up the ass and get them out of a depressive state.

Grab banners from Main Ichigos, and put it somewhere.

Um no offence but this thread is making people depressed and confused.
erhh.. yup.. im now quite depressed..

Here, here an-kun!! Good on you, that is exactly the kind of spirit we need!

If I'm going to leave here, I WILL come back to here at sometime! :lol:
(Or maybe I'll stay here!) :)

Why leave? Be the example for new members. I don't really fit here either. Didn't stop me from staying.

oh Yes you do, Zach! You fit in perfectly with all us crazies :lol:

Edit: I meant "crazies" in a positive way btw.

Zach you fit. You wouldn't drop your pants for red bull if i didnt suggest it. :P

With all due respect, this was supposed to be some serious talk here x_x


Hehe, nice to see you've made up your mind. No point in creating another topic, but...I'll probaly be leaving this forum soon. It's seems its either RPGing, or pointless spam topics. Not only that, but it seems that I have managed to get on just about everyone's nerves. Angelic, Gand, Sarah, even Zero I'm sure. Then there is madmanz, as well as Alex. Kou even seemed to show some slight annoyance towards me.

Don't leave if you think its just because some of us don't like you. The rare intellectual argument is you is somewhat entertaining, not annoying. Besides, your posts probably have more attention than mine most of the time

I'll be here till the day Ichigos ends.Though that's happened several times already ;)Haha, you mean you'll be with us until we disband. ^_^

i never really fitted in at the start either.. but i hang around for a while..
but this thread makes me think about the day when i DO leave.. that is, IF i decide to leave...

Nightmare, you know, you are one of those people whose posts leave a distinct impression on me. You do make a difference. Like what angelic said, you are one of the few serious members around, and it's always interesting to read your alternative viewpoints, even though i might not always agree with them. Because no matter what you say, it's obvious you don't sprout it up on impulse, and you do give alot of thought to it before you say it. And well, you know in that redux thread, i wouldn't have bothered replying to you if i didn't think you were mature enough to understand what i said. Please do reconsider your decision.

all i have to say is: welcome back Kou

I've just been thinking about Spike's departure post then realised, maybe I have outgrown here too.

Been here for what.. 2~3 years now (can't even remember, heh), but then I was never really in the group was I.. Just ranted on about random stuff, half the time getting about as much attention as a trash bin at a zoo somewhere, eventually seeing all my peers depart and the forums fill up with a new generation.

And yeah.. I'm friggin' 20 now, the big two-zero. A couple of my friends even got married, becoming "responsible adults". I know Edwin's gonna give me crap for saying this, but maybe I'm a little too old to sit around and chat with guys 5~6 years younger than me, hm?

*hands Kou a big steaming pile* <_< Actually, I'm kind of a special case because I'm on Disability due to a bad back and; since I can't get a real job because no employer wants to insure me; I actually have time to sit at a computer and post with people who share my love for Anime and Music. I don't think age should be a negative factor when it comes to things that you enjoy. Personally, I think that I have a bit of an advantage knowledge-wise because I've seen certain Anime shows (i.e. Marine Boy) that, so far as I can tell, haven't seen the light of day since before you were born. (Of course, they may very well have been released on DVD without my knowledge; in which case, I humbly apologize for any unwarranted bragging...)



So I'm trying to decide.. This place is sorta like the place where I've stored my immature personality into. If I leave here, well, you know.. I'll have to face the real life challenges. More than half of my "Uni" section of life's over, I'll soon be looking at finding a job, maybe even having a family not a few years down the road.

But really.. I don't want that, maybe its just selfish of me not wanting to grow up? Looking for a "Neverland" where you won't have to worry about all that crap? Always thought the best thing about anime/novel/fantasywhatever was that you never had to worry about the things of life.

Eventually though, I will have to face the realities of my life. Falling grades, lack of interest in tertiary education, employment, I've got at most 2 years maybe that I can waste until time's up.

So what should I do? Continue to take the "go with the flow" approach and see what I end up with? or get myself together and work to be a social success? (but a total personal failure)



After all these thoughts pass my head, (I'm actually thinking as I write this)
Ahh what the hell. The whole point of places like this is so that you could maybe forget about those annoyances of life. I'll be here till the day Ichigos ends.



I'm Kou. Age 20 and counting, Mental age frozen at 17 for an indefinite amount of time. Nice to meet you all again.

Nice to meet you, again, Kou! Just remember: Age is the journey, not the destination.